I've been reading a lot lately and everything just clicked together to make sense to me this morning.
I feel like I'm in over my head. Thoughts are swirling.... co-addiction, addictions, self-mutilation, eating disorders, abuse, emotional manipulation, mental illness, ptsd, rebellion, submission, grief, anger, boundaries, abandonment.... I finally have words for the things I have felt and feel. What feels like the final piece fell into place this morning so that I can make sense of what the picture is on the puzzle.
I need help. I need a therapist. I need money to go see a therapist. *sigh*