Wednesday, July 27, 2011

What Bigender means to me

This is my first youtube video! My don't have a fancy computer so I recorded it on my smart phone and could only get it uploaded if I broke it into 5 minute clips. After 3 recordings.... its still 20 minutes. Sorry.. enjoy!

Part 1: My background and who I am
Part 2: What is gender, cisgender, & bigender
Part 3: What does it mean to live as two genders
Part 4: Bigender as a social role

Saturday, July 16, 2011


Ok. I've had a breakdown. A shift in priorities. Time for me.....

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Please just make it all stop.


- Unemployment $ ran out last week.
- Roommate moves out Friday and can't find a new one.
- I'm on call from two massage clinics 4 days a week.... but am lucky to get 1 client from them each week.
- I've been marketing my own business for 6 weeks and have been doing chair massage every weekend, and have yet to get a client.
- Two of my classes at school are giving me panic attacks and/or making me cry every time.
- I've become severely allergic to massage oil making when I DO work on clients a terrible experience each time.
- I've become allergic to rice which is one of only 4 foods I was tolerating.

I'm becoming very sick trying to deal with all of this.

Please just make it stop.

I'm normally really good at finding the silver lining and focusing on what I CAN change and control. But I've run into a wall and don't have much I can change or control. Help me. Someone. Please.