Malaise (Bex-black)

The stage of Lyme disease I'm currently suffering with directly correlates to Tertiary Syphilis. Its crazy how similar the two diseases are. But it makes sense, since both are similar "bugs". I'm not on the Venus Fly Trap anymore because it is in a suspension of ethanol that is making me sick. So, right now I've been loading up on vitamins and minerals like zinc and Vit. A. I am back on the detox homeopathics and also one for arthritis. (btw.... I cannot believe how painful arthritis is!) I'm starting to get boils all over me, which means I have a deep, systemic infection and my immune system can't keep up. I hope that tomorrow I can start taking micro-nutrients that are formulated to combat Lymes. Meanwhile, I'm struggling with a bad herxheimer reaction to the homeopathics and a cold.

The weather here has been kinda crazy. It was over 100F (it was 105F when I was at school) on Monday. Its been thunder and rain all day today. I can't remember the last time there was this much variation in the weather here in San Diego. It's nice.

I'm officially a full time student now! 11 credits at Mueller and 5 at Mesa. At the moment I'm feeling over whelmed, but I'm sure it will get better in a few weeks.

I got a whole bunch of new fish last week... one died today. :-( They are little guppies. I got another frog too for the tank. I think I might need to get a hood and filter for the whole thing. I had 3 colored ones and two golden ones (a different species). The colored ones keep chasing and biting the golden ones. Now a gold one is dead. I don't know what is going on.

I've got a new roommate.... again. *sigh*

I've been seeing my gender therapist for almost 3 months now. She has had me join group therapy to... DBT. So, I'm in DBT again. I don't like it much better than before, but we will see where it goes and hopefully it gets better. She wants to make me open up about some of my trauma history at our next appointment, which is Friday. I have a lot of mixed feelings about it. Mostly not good ones.

I've been watching the TV show Bones on DVD lately. Its easier just to get lost and check out in the show than reality sometimes. I don't feel pain when I check out. And now that UCSD has started up again, Adam is back in San Diego running the calpirg office. All I can think about is how much I want to be part of the pirg chapters and that i want to prove that I am good enough to get into UCSD. When I do, I intend on being chapter chair and doing something for that chapter that he is just not capable of doing. Make it successful.